and so i speak...

It goes right from the stomach up to the neck and caused me nausea. that is the effect of pretending everything is going well, and i can control every condition that i am in. even i can't manage a soft small and a good laugh. but that is for yesterday. today i can always bounce back and move on, whilst convincing myself that i can fight for today and reversing the condition again. this is not a game to play, however the best case from the worst case scenario should be created. breaking down won't solve it. today i will stand up for my own self and set my own condition. keep on reminding myself on these words "be calm. be strong. be patient. be wise. and be elegant."

I shall not conquer anger and emotionally attached with problems or people, the best thing is to think wise, and have a peaceful mind while keeping myself on the ground. let the best thing happened, let the wisest mind be run.